This Paintball Hobby Can Be Painful

Seriously, what do you want? Sorry but this is me time, trying to better my life, and it seems to be alot easier doing it on my own.

Here It Is

So I guess eventually I will have to write about school, it's just that by the time I get home after being there all day, I'm not really in the mood to talk about it. SO I figured I could write while at school in between classes. Unfortunetly because I am doing a business program during the summer semester I have to go to 2 different campus's on alternating days. Travel time isn't terrible, but being such a shy person, it has been difficult going to 2 new schools where I know no one. All of my insecurities from highschool have come back tenfold, I thought I would have outgrown them. Last week was full of anxiety which made it so I had no appetite, which somehow ended up as a cold! On Thursday we were told that at break we should discuss a project with our classmates and decide who would partner up together. Me, being a loner, got so nervous to talk to people that I ended up going in to the washroom and being sick to my stomach instead. Lucky for me when I went back to class a few girls came up to me and asked if I would like to be in their group. Why was I so worked up? I must be crazy. Slowly I am getting back into this school routine, after being a bum for a year and doing nothing much besides work, it is hard to get back into a regular schedule. Second week is a little bit easier, it helps that I now have at least one person in each of my classes that I can talk to. But lo and behold I am still alone for the looong 2 hour(which seems more like 5 hours) break between classes. Well this blog sucks, my writing is scattered, but hey I have alot on my mind. Next class is computers which is sooo boringly easy, hello obviously I know how to use microsoft word, is this what I am paying $300 for? Have already almost completed an assignment that isn't due until June 9th. Yawn.... Im out.

Bad Timing or What

Being sick better not wreck this weekend

I need to do some major mental reorganzing...

Clutz of the Century?

If there is a corner, a sharp edge, a slight raise in the ground, I will find it for I am destined to always be covered in bruises. My elbow hurts. This makes me think of my Dad who is VERY overprotective ( Sorry Dad, this may embarass you?) When I was a kid I would never watch where I was going. One day as I was skipping along I had my face turned to behind me. So of course I didn't see the cement pole that I ran into face first. My Dad, being angry he hadn't been able to stop me getting hurt, decided to do the next best thing. He punched the cement pole. Bet that hurt!

You make me smile! I hope You know who you are! :)

No title?

A few things I've written in the past year that made me think as I reflected back on them today;

[Loving you is the most harmful thing I have ever done to myself]

[You've given me another chance to be the one you want to see. Do I want to make this work, to be the one You want Me to be?]

[I have watched the ones I've loved spirits grow cold, do you understand what it has done to me?]

Am I gloomy sometimes or what? Jeez !

Life, Again

Life, life, life. What else is there to write about really? Everyday I am humbled by the twists and turns life gives me. When you think you have everything figured out, wammy, life lets you know whos in charge. My question is, are we able to take the reins from life and fully be in charge of our own lives? Or are there too many outside influences that effect us?

Hard Work Pays Off!

So after all the hoops I have had to jump through to apply for school, apply for a student loan, apply for a fee deferral, apply for courses, I have worked everything out! Starting May 10th I am officially a student again and I am so excited! I am ready to get my life moving. Hurray! I haven't felt this happy in a long time. :)

Ruckus

I got Ruckus when I was most in need of something furry and cute to make me look forward to going home. The day I got him I was looking to buy a hamster, unfortunetly the pet store had none. Well, seeing as I was so excited and wanting SOMETHING I ended up with Ruckus who just happened to be a gerbil. When I got him home I put him in his carefully made up cage that I had made all pretty just for him. He tore the place apart! I went to pick him up and he bit me. I started texting and calling everyone I knew, asking if they wanted a gerbil, free cage and all! Fortunetly for me, no one wanted him. He turned out to be more than just a little rodent. In his life he did alot! From trips to Richmond, sunbathing outside in the summer, killing crickets like a machine, starring in a short film 'Paws and Order', to living with half a tail, he put gerbils on the map. Typically these little animals are lucky to live up to 3 years old, Ruckus lived to almost 5! On Easter he passed away peacefully, eating all the sunflower and pumpkin seeds out of his dish and then dying in his sleep in his little bed. Rest in peace little buddy, thanks for broadening my horizon.

Happy Easter!

I Enjoy Easter. Any occasion where people give me chocolate is a good one.